Ahh, Blogging

I've been pretty lax on the updating again.
It seems to be a habit.
I'll go a couple days updating consistantly, and then I fall off the face of the earth.

Hopefully this will be the last time I have to promise to change that.

In less apologetic news...


We've got 2 updates on ManBearPig2.0!!!

1. ManBearPig2.0 has recently been renamed (fanfareplease)
MANBEARPUPPY!

I was with my mom after a doctors visit and was telling her how I was starting to hate manbearpig less.
Then my mom, out of nowhere, says something like "so instead of manbearpig, she's more of a manbearpuppy".
Flipping Genius!
After a while I thought of it like this, nobody (except Michael Vick) wants to punch a puppy in the face.
Granted, I'm not about to hug her or anything, or even think she's an ok therapist, but I wouldn't punch her in the face either.

2. ManbearPUPPY is moving. All of a sudden I get a phone call telling me my next appointment is going to be in a new office.
*le sigh* my first instinct is to say "F that, I guess I'll need a new therapist." And damn is that an instinct worth following.
But I've gone through 3 therapists already and I'm not really sure how Dr. B would look upon ditching a fourth.
My Psych teacher has a practice about 40 minutes away from my house which is around double the drive time of manbearpuppy and a little closer than Dr. B's office.
I really like Patti and already it seems like I've got a pretty good feel of her additude. She's already shared with the class that she has PTSD and the circumstances surrounding that, and I think she'd really be able to help me get over shit.
Even manbearpuppy has commented on how based on my behavior and general affect it's easy for her to think I've gone through trauma. She's tossed around complex ptsd, but I really don't know if my past would really fit that diagnosis. I agree with her than I do show a lot of the symptoms, and it would explain a lot of my phobias and possibly help explain my self injury (and the rest of my negative coping shit)
Idk.
I think right now my main focus is going to be just getting Dr. B to agree to continue drugging me up without therapy.
but my thing is that I don't like lying to Dr. B decent therapy could definantly help me out right about now.
FML I guess that's the only thing that can sum up this shit